Hey there! I am still here guys. 

Still all over the place, procrastinate things and regretting it later. There's times I would feel like I wasted my time.

2020 is such a tough year. Suddenly COVID happened. Since all of us is forced to stay at home most of the time, i am able to do some reflection on life and nasib baik mampu untuk pujuk hati to become a better person.

2021 condition masih sama tapi so far I feel much better sebab macam dah pandai control hidup, tak all over the place sangat. 

Hope you too able to feel better despite all uncertainty during pandemic.

Here I am in the coffee shop waiting for my phone. I sent it to clinic to be fixed. While waiting, I suddenly remember I have not updated for quite awhile now.

Just finished reading ProudDuck blog. This post make me write here. I really admire Vivy as a blogger! Despite having a very busy life, she is still enjoy updating her blog. Seems like I am not dedicated enough.


But I have exciting news to share here . . .





Next week I will start my part time Master Degree Program in UTMKL.

Up to this date, I still am not so sure about what I really want in life. But I swear by this phrase 'tak ada ilmu yang sia-sia'. So I really do not mind learning about anything. I am sure that it will be useful at any point of my life.


I decided that now is a good time to start being a student again. I keep on making excuses before and it is about time that I ran out of it. That is why few months before I accepted the offer and will start classes in two weeks time. There are things that still have not settled but I received my time tables for this semester. Back to sleepless night finishing assignments and preparing for exam. 

Hope everything went well. Wish me luck, guys!

"What is hardware in Bahasa?"

The boss of mine often ask random questions but this got me thinking. All of sudden I remember my younger siblings' teknologi maklumat textbook that are fully in Malay and I had a hard time understanding it. Nowadays, they started learn pseudocode in primary school! Back in my school days, we do not have that subject thus I only started involving myself in IT field once I step into university.

I do enjoy Amanz website for all IT related news in Bahasa Malaysia. Really appreciate that they make a complete IT related website in proper Bahasa Malaysia just for ones that are much comfortable using the official language of Malaysia to stay updated.  


Here is some of very common IT Term that we always use in Bahasa :-


Shutdown: Tutup, Matikan

Default: Lalai (Tetapan utama)

Setting: Tetapan

Install: Pasang

Uninstall: Nyahpasang

Software: Perisian

Hardware: Perkakas, Perkakasan

Execute: Menjalankan, Jalankan

Run: Jalankan (Program, Perisian)

Tool: Alat

Hack: Godam

Design: Reka, Mereka

Download: Muat turun

Upload: Muat Naik

Batch: Kelompok, Kumpulan

Access: Akses

Copy: Salin

Paste: Tampal

Link: Pautan

Programming: Pengaturcaraan

Configuration: Konfigurasi

Connection: Sambungan

Network: Rangkaian

Database: Pangkalan Data

Delete: Padam

Error: Ralat

Bug: Pepijat

Graphical User Interface: Paparan Antaramuka Pengguna

Cloud Computing: Pengkomputeran Awan

Storage: Penyimpanan (Data, Fail)

Screenshot: Cekupan Skrin

Restart: Mulai Semula

Manual: Panduan

Log Off: Log Keluar (Sama dengan Log Out)

Program: Aplikasi, Atur Cara

Patch: Penampal



Some do sound so weird right? We are so used on using only English when come with all IT related that the malay translation sounds wrong. I would probably fail miserably if taking any of my IT paper in Bahasa Malaysia back in uni.

It's been a while. . .


First time sambut raya in kedah, merasa lah jugak pengalaman balik kampung lalu jalan darat risau tak dapat tiket la jalan jem la semua. After 10 years #teamrayakl, tahun ni lain sikit.




p/s successfully gain 4kg within 1.5week #hiobesity

Remember that day I told you that my phone, Senah failed me?

Yup I got replacement, Kiah. Bought it using maxis one plan promo for RM1! Totally a bargain right?! So what's the catch? We need to subscribe for Maxis One Plan for min of a year. I went for the highest plan that cost me RM200/month inc gst with 25GB weekdays 25GB weekends data. I know, i'm crazy.

Since i'm planning to subscribe this, we decided to unsubscribe wifi service in the house. My sister and I were barely at home and we felt like we don't really use much of the wifi as we had enough of our own mobile data plan.

Last weekend I decided to be lazy and stayed on bed the whole day. Normally I would be able to enjoy my dose of korean drama or recent movies using the wifi but now nahhh. Suddenly I felt empty, serba salah don't know what to do. It's been awhile since I have attached myself fully to internet. I always prefer do things online thus 50GB data/month is certainly not enough.



I regret it now. But it is just tooooooo late, need to learn live without it.

Been busy rushing through the datelines. After few months in this new phase of life, I discover some of major differences between the two. Sometimes I couldn't help to miss my student life but most of the time I just enjoy learning new things informally every single day.

Responsibility

I know that the responsibility will be changed but I just didn't realize how big it is. Maybe I thought too lightly on this. When you're a student, you are still relying to the parents. A LOT. Now as I am all on my own, I really felt the big responsible and more conscious of my action as this effect directly to the future. No more wake up late, no more ponteng, no more procrastinate, no more late submission. Oh you still can do all those things just prepare to face the consequences; get warning, losing your job and be blacklisted. Your choice.

Money

Oh dear I was so wrong when I thought I will be financially stable right after I secure the job. Everything does not come in a bling of eye. It takes time. After calculating all the commitment I somehow left with just a small amount of spend on things I want. Now I'm learning to prioritize things, needs before wants, that's the most important. If not you will find yourself struggle in the middle of the months.

Time

Time management is very important now because I always had so many things to do in limited amount of time. We always take it for granted during school because the teachers/lecturers always give us a second chances to redeem ourselves. Clearly that does not happen in the real world. If I fail to deliver things on time it will affect the project timeline and yes that means troubles. Will be stuck from 9 to 6 at the office on weekdays and sometimes had to work overtime on weekends. Those busy life make me sometimes miss all the extra free time I'll always get during school. I found myself making time only with the people I want to be. We just do not have any time and energy to waste with the wrong people.

Appearance

It is does not matter what kind of jobs you had, you still need to be at least presentable in the workplace. As much as I want to ignore this but in reality, first impression matter especially when you are in the corporate world. I found myself care about my look (clothes & make up) more since I started working compare to when I'm still a student. I am in the professional fields so definitely must act like one.

Social Life

I feel that I am not afraid on meeting new people anymore. There are much more going on in the real life. People problem and drama that you are not expecting at all. The social circle is getting smaller and smaller as it is difficult to make new friends after school. We used to be surrounded by people of similar age but well not anymore. But people just come and go and I have learned to accept that. I don't really care about it anymore, just do good and good things eventually comes after.


This are a few major things I could think of for the moments. Still have a lot more to learn and adapt. Things get hard sometimes but I just hope to get over it fast and survive just fine.

What is the new things you experience recently?

I keep whining bout how my phone, Senah is not performing in its full capacity and I want to change to a new one as soon as I can. Guess who decided to ditch me first!

Last night it suddenly turned off. At first I though oh battery flat, need to charge my phone. However it remain dead. My heart just sinks. I'm not ready, that is the very first phone I bought with my own money using my first salary on the first ever part time job I have. It had very high sentimental value. Feel cheated for awhile.

So i'm phoneless for three days now.  I'm still considering different phone options. Goodbye Senah. Hello future phone, hope you last longer.

Tired and grumpy.



So much for wanting to update regularly.. 😑😑😑😑😑

My mood is totally messed up with the dateline coming and trying to get my that other part of life together. Simple thing can change my mood in seconds. Need to update something to keep me sane but don't really want to rant nonsense here. Guess that I just could not help it.

Come on this is just the first month of the year and I feel like falling apart. Two voices keep bickering in my head. The positive mind say this is nothing yet the other totally insist that everything is wrong.

How was your day? Hope that it'd be great.

New year come.




Currently I'm stuck in the office with my coffee. It is raining heavenly outside. Another year has gone. But routine stay the same. This blog stayed.

So for now I only have one ultimate goal.

UPDATE REGULARLY.

With a beneficial content. I always have this blog post ideas in my head but somehow could not manage to fully write it out and that often frustrate me.

I've managed to update something at least once a month on 2016 and hope to be better this year. Once a week? Hope so!

I felt like my writing style has change as I move on with life. It seems matured over the years? Been a blogger since in middle school and never really deleted what I have published, not that I'm proud of it but just for the sake of memories that associate with it. It excites me to be able to read back how 15 years old me see life. And it would be great to read these again in the next 10 years where my situation would be a lot different than what it is now.

New year is coming sooner that I expected. Time for a brand new year resolution. Start new year with a brand new energy. Here are my bucketlist that I really hope manage to be cross off by the end of 2017.

Solo Trip

This is the one thing that I really want to experience. Some may asked, why would you go alone when you can have friends or anyone tag along? Well it is definitely hard to find someone that share 90% and above, the same interest with you. If you ever find one, you are really lucky. Tie them quickly and don't let them go! Often you found yourself or the other party to give in a little bit to make the trip a success. Solo travel will give a new refreshing experience. You are in control of everything from the start till the end. There are times where we really need some me time.

Own New Gadgets

I'm planning to get a new phone, laptop and camera. Seems like too much but all three of them is equally important. It is not like I don't own one at all but the one that I had is not functioning in their full capacity. It's been years. Oh and a gopro? This one is more of a want than need. Need to work hard to afford it all. If that is too much, let me have at least one of them for next year.

Adventurous Activities

Wouldn't say that I'm a adventurous person but definitely love to challenge and push myself to the limit. That is why I need a positive and supportive people near me as inspiration and boost my confidence. I can't do it alone.

Overcome Obesity

I just want to be healthy and feel good about myself. There are so many bad things come with obesity and I do not want to fall sick due to my laziness and carelessness. Slowly but surely. It is okay not to reach a normal weight but at least stay out of obesity range.

Blood Donation

I'm really scared of blood. The sight of blood make me really uncomfortable and sick. But but but I really want to do this at least once in my life time. It is for a good cause! I think I am ready. Oh I don't even know what is my blood type is. 😅


That's all I can think right now. Till then. . .

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

These days rasa macam tak bersemangat je buat kerja. Badan rasa lesu je ntah kenapa. Pagi-pagi dah tersengguk-sengguk. I think my body is telling me it is about time. To change. To be more productive.

I've always been overweight all my life. Tak pernah la merasa berat badan ideal. Keinginan nak have a normal weight memang sentiasa ada tapi as a normal chubby person i really really love my food and sangatlah benci buat aktiviti yang mengerakkan badan. Not willing to give up either my bed or food. Cemana kan.

I was just lazy. That's it. Macam takde motivation and keep procrastinate. My diet always starts tomorrow. Alasan takpe hari ni je. Asyik cakap okay esok aku berubah tapi ntah bila esok tu. So I came up with very simple simple simple rule wajib ikut dalam sebulan ni.

• strictly no late night snacks 
• have breakfast every single day

Malas please please go away. Semoga mampu istiqomah dan mencapai targat yang diingini. Amin.

Hi there! How are you? Hope life have treating you well so far.

me everyday

For me, alhamdulillah dah ada new 9-6 routine tapi masih dalam fasa menyesuaikan diri. Still figuring out how to do stuff, works with a team and many more. New environment memang banyak benda kena belajar balik kan.

Still couldn't believe i'm already in this phase of life. Gosh. Buat masa sekarang harap boleh buat kerja dengan gembira dan ikhlas je. Okay bye nak tidur esok dah isnin harap tak kena monday blues

2nd July 2016

It was my graduation day! Yeayy finally after 4 years spending time in limkokwing i managed to get my certificate with distinction.





Yup i'm having my graduation during ramadhan, beberapa hari sebelum raya. They really want to stick with usual schedule i guess unless it is public holiday, the show must go on.




The event was held in PICC jadi lepas sahur masing-masing dah sibuk pilih baju la pilih tudung la pilih make up look la eh payah betul jadi perempuan semua nak kena elok, rapi, cantik.




Saya datang dulu untuk daftar, set myself and mingle around with classmates buat kali terakhir. I don't even sure mama ayah duduk dekat bahagian mana, nampak ke tak anak dia ni. Lepas habis event my phone pun sekali habis bateri. Menggagau kau cari family sendiri. Tengok orang lain dah syok bergumbira sakan terus emosi. Dah la penat puasa.

Okay picture time!
























Balik dari PICC sempat singgah bazaar putrajaya. Dengan jubah and topi. Semangat sekali seumur hidup biarlah. Padahal panas weh. Dah la penat gila energy pun dah di tahap sekarat.




Lepas buka puasa terus hilang dalam mimpi. Super tiring but fun day! Now it is time to venture a new chapter in life as my students phase is done. Welcome to adult world yang penuh ketidakpastian.

I need new raya clothes. Been using the old baju raya for years now that i decided it is about time to get new one. Tapi tapi tapi totally not the type yang sanggup redah sekumpulan besar manusia kat shopping malls just to shop few items. I always scared to try to shop online sebab saiz badan yang tak mengizinkan. Even in physical stores tu payah nak cari yang fit. Mungkin ada online shop yang have return policy, tapi i just dont like the hassle of returning the items and need to wait again for days to get the new one. I dont have any problem to buy other things besides baju and kasut online though.

Thank god dari kecil memang mama tak pernah ajar anak dia wajib shopping untuk hari raya. We just shop for new clothes bila-bila rasa perlu. Tak pernah pulak harus tunggu raya baru dapat baju baru. Jadi selalu rasa takpe la we always can shop later after the storm ends. Saya personally rasa sebab both my parents pun sejenis yang sangat rimas nak bersesak-sesak bila shooping. All of us prefer having a peaceful time to really splurge on things we want. Yelah kalau dah bersesak akan jadi cepat penat dan bila penat tu mulalah semua benda jadi tak kena. A time that are suppose to be enjoyable terus jadi completely opposite.

And this year again raya kat kl oh how i miss suasana raya kat kampung. Doakan kami ada rezeki sempat sambut raya with other families next year.

In this house, biasanya kalau seorang sakit, semua will eventually fall sick. Last week, mama balik sebab demam and lepas few days dah nampak tanda-tanda saya nak sakit pulak. Tekak dah rasa semacam and hidung dah mula tersumbat tapi kita buat relax dulu sometimes dia takat kat situ je doesn't really lead to the major sickness, demam.

Tapi kali ni dia decided to sakit betul punya, tak main la sikit-sikit. Saya dah la jenis tak berapa suka makan ubat. Seboleh nak avoid ubat but bila sakit time bulan puasa, oh how i wish to just breakfast, minum air and makan ubat. Penat psycho diri sendiri you can do this, you can do this. Oh man i was wrong, totally tak capable to do anything. Lama dah tak sakit ni. Pastu degil pulak takmo pergi klinik. Now alhamdulillah getting better just batuk tak habis-habis. Okay la jujur memang ada skip-skip makan ubat sikit hehehe.

And now i'm officially done with semester six!!



Alhamdulillah berjaya jugak settle kan semua benda on time. Now i'm just waiting for my marks, lulus ke tak nak graduate this July. If i do, come to PICC on July 2nd and bring me flowers tau.

Proud moment bila hantar the final major project report. Walau i'm not doing much, been able to produce this very simple system by myself rasa macam dah berjaya dan tak sia-sia my four years kat university tu penat attended class here and there.

Now just need to have a little me time in a month or so then off to berdiri atas kaki sendiri we go. Bagi i enjoy the very last moments of having lots of free time with not much responsible.

The holy month is here again. May this ramadhan marks the new journey of discovery ourselves as muslims. My goals for this ramadhan is pergi tarawih tiap hari. Last year selalu missed sebab kerja and since now tengah cuti, really hope i'll be able to accomplish this.

Niat tiap malam jangan lupa. For those yang geng ada very limited memory like me eloklah niat sebulan terus. Selamat sikit.




And here i share sekali niat tiap hari. Saya selalu kalau niat mesti automatic nyanyi sebab dulu belajar nak hafal ikut lagu raihan tu.





Puasa ni mesti excited pergi bazaar ramadhan kan tapi jangan sampai membazir tau. Have fun beribadah and gain pahala banyak-banyak!

Supposed to have my final exam paper today but somehow it was postponed to next week. I was totally ready to be finally done with my degree tapi saje je dia kasi chance kita nak nikmati student time lagi sikit luls.

Now just kena study hard for my one and only paper this semester and submit the finalize major project report without any error. Hope that i'll be graduating on time. This road to graduation definitely does not come easy.


And need to start looking for jobs.